Yoga With Bo, January 9th 2016

January 9th, 2016|Categories: Bo & Su, Health, Writing

I find that I stick to projects best when I share them with others. Rachel is my Project Partner in many things. It’s an important aspect of our friendship, especially since it’s long distance. We’re there for each other in all ways, but sharing projects makes me feel even closer to her.

Our projects mainly revolve around yoga, cooking, and photography. This month we’re doing Yoga With Adriene’s Yoga Camp. It’s amazing! Each daily practice is accompanied by a mantra, which I really respond to. I like words mixed with action.

I haven’t been great about doing this project every day. This past week has been an intense week personally and physically so I’ve been grabbing yoga in small bursts here and there, but not taking a stretch of time for myself every day. I’ve done 4 of the 8 days though, so not bad!

I thought a good way to encourage me to keep it up is to share the video each day (on days I actually participate) and, if I’m inspired, also share my thoughts on the mantra. Join me if you feel inspired!

Today’s class was restorative after a week of challenging goodness. It was perfect for me because a) today is my gin-through-a-straw day (which is what I call the first day of my period), 2) my body aches, and d) my attention span is terrible lately. I have probably a dozen projects all going at once and I flit from one to the other like a faerie with melancholia. So just the actual practice felt scrumptious!
Today’s mantra is: “I choose…”

I finished the sentence with “to take care of myself.”

I choose this path my life is on. It didn’t happen TO me. I’m not a spectator in my life, I AM my life. I AM my choices. So here’s where I’m at based on my choices. I chose this path. I choose to take care of myself. Not just as a solo person without a partner for the first time in 20 years, but also as a human with a body and a mind and choice to do what feels right for myself. So that’s what I choose today. To take care of myself. I take control of me.

Les Beehive Revamp

January 8th, 2016|Categories: Bo & Su

Hello my loves! It’s been awhile since I’ve been able to truly dedicate time to the site. I’ve even considered letting it go. I just can’t though, it means too much to me. So, instead I’m brainstorming a revamp – something new that will contain less content, but the same type of content mixed with more personal words and photos. It will still look the same because, I think we all agree, this site is GORGEOUS.

The biggest revamp will be the exclusion of Su’s contribution to the site. Su and I have separated after 12 years together as partners and nearly 11 years sharing content on the internet together. I gained custody of Les Beehive in the separation, so it’s just my words and input from here on out. Su’s content will remain archived. She was an important part of Les Beehive’s inception and growth and I’m so grateful for her presence on the site over the past 2 years. Now it’s a solo vamp adventure, and I am excited to have you all by my side while I navigate my new life and learn to speak as a me and not a we.

So stick with me! I have a lot to figure out right now, including a relocation and a job search, but I am dedicated to keeping my voice active and to providing a safe enthusiastic space for you all to admire beauty and find inspiration!

Also follow me on Facebook and Instagram why doncha!

Recent David Bellemere Editorials

December 17th, 2015|Categories: Fashion Editorials, Fashion Models, Fashion Photographers

David Bellemere delivers some Famed Fashion Photographer Gilles Bensimon inspired realness to these editorials for the US Elle. They’re lucky to have such a talent working with them. Bellemere shoots Aline Weber for the October issue in a perfect series of shots as a lead-in from Autumn to Winter, as well as Cora Emmanuel in a similar shoot for the November issue. Melodie Monrose is featured in the November issue as well in a story that looks like one I would have clipped from an 80s issue of Elle. Excellent work from both photographer and models!

Aline Weber by David Bellemere for Elle, October 2015

Cora Emmanuel by David Bellemere for Elle, November 2015

Melodie Monrose by David Bellemere for Elle, November 2015

The Stars of #Horror by Kate Owen for Paper Magazine, Winter 2015

December 17th, 2015|Categories: Celebrity Editorials & Photo Shoots, Film

Actress, fashion designer, and Chloe Sevigny BFF Tara Subkoff makes her directorial debut with the Horror film aptly titled: #Horror. The movie itself looks like it might not be great – while stylish and starring Chloe in all her cool perfection, and one of my girlhood crushes Timothy Hutton (who can still GET IT), it looks a little thin and like it’s trying a little too hard. But we’ll see! In the meantime, Paper Mag did this excellent editorial featuring the stars of #Horror as various iconic horror heroines. Chloe, Natasha Lyonne, Annabelle Dexter-Jones, Lydia Hearst, Stella Schnabel, and Taryn Manning all star with Subkoff posed as Master of Horror Alfred Hitchcock. Spooky perfection!

Check out the trailers for #Horror below!

Bo Words: Kindness, Trust, and Vulnerability

December 10th, 2015|Categories: Bo & Su, Photography, Writing

Lately I’ve been ruminating on kindness, trust, and vulnerability. Becoming a PuBLiC FiGuRe a few years ago was super fun, but opening myself up to the masses definitely affected my ability to trust not only others, but myself (I think I just quoted Kelly Clarkson). I write for an audience, a large(ish) audience, and I second guess everything I say. I determined it best to be the most hair tossing, wide eyed, fashionable version of myself online and gather a group of close friends to trust with the disastrous part of me – the part that cries, lies, gossips, tells secrets, betrays confidences, drinks too much, denies personal responsibility and accountability, delights in the misfortune of others. The deepest part of me, the part that’s the biggest mess and the most raw, I revealed only to maybe 2 people and my cat.

When you trust people though, you don’t just trust them with the parts of you that are easily forgiven for being human, you trust them with the ugly parts of you, and you trust them to love you still. When you reveal your ugly though, you also reveal the pain behind the ugly – the reasons why you’re ugly, and those reasons are always painful, heartbreaking, sad, misfortunate reasons. When you trust someone and they choose to betray the trust or or judge the confidence, it hurts because your heart isn’t feeling their rejection based on your activities, it’s feeling their rejection based on your fucked up, broken past – the abuse-driven or mental or emotional or heretical reasons for doing the terrible things you do. The pain when someone you love chooses to not love you back because of your actions is excruciating compared to the frustration when someone on the internet judges you for the way you look or your taste in celebrities. Why, then, have I chosen to keep the ugly parts of me from the masses and trust my heart with people who actually have more power to hurt or frighten me? Why am I not locked inside myself, where it’s safe?

Because I believe in the kindness of others. Because I believe in my kindness. Because if I didn’t trust other people crippling loneliness would overwhelm me. Because I want people to trust me. Because you disappoint people and people disappoint you, it happens. Because it feels good to apologize. Because forgiveness and acceptance is a gift. But what do I have to lose from being myself with everyone when being vulnerable means allowing yourself to be hurt? You give others the power to hurt you, yes, but then you remember that it’s up to you to deal with your own reactions. No one has power over your ability to express kindness, empathy, gratitude, and forgiveness.

My therapist told me a few weeks ago when I was fretting about what someone might think of me to “Just be Bo.” She said, “People are going to see you however they choose, but wouldn’t it be great if who they see is you. Just be Bo. Just be you.”

So here I am. I am all the things I present to the internet: funny, clever, fashionable, pretty, body positive, cat obsessed, but I am also a disaster. I have said and done terrible things about and to myself and people I love and people I don’t even know because I was envious, or hurt, or unable to actually face my demons, so instead I buried myself in vicious gossip, dangerous behaviour, and unproductive activities. Making that realization frees me though – it gives me accountability and the ability to no longer indulge in that behaviour, not because I don’t want people to dislike me, but because I want to stop disliking myself. I want to accept the best and worst of me and accept the best and worst of those I love, but stop giving myself permission to misbehave because I’m sad, or hurt, or angry. That is not an excuse. There is never a reason to be unkind, especially to people you love, ESPECIALLY to yourself.

The worst thing I’ve done though, is attempted to shape myself into someone that will please everyone or kept parts of myself hidden because I was afraid to be judged or shamed. Every mistake I’ve made can be traced back to my desperate need for people to like me and not judge me harshly. People are going to judge me though. Not everyone is going to like me. May as well be myself. I can’t be bitter and frightened any more. I can’t. I won’t. I’m going to be kind. I’m going to be generous. I’m going to be accepting. I’m going to be grateful. I’m going to be Bo.